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I need to journal more often.
Jun. 30th, 2025 06:10 pmIt’s been four days since I decided to leave Tumblr, and it’s been so quiet around here. It’s been peaceful, but I had become so used to checking my notifications every day, that now I almost don’t know what to do with myself now that that’s gone. I guess I’ll be writing a lot more on here. Which is good. I don’t keep a physical journal anymore because I’m afraid of it being found. I’ll go to start one, and find myself holding back because of what happened when I was a teenager.
What I miss the most is the fanfics and the engagement I would get on mine. Some of my favorite writers were only on Tumblr and nowhere else. I also miss the Jumblr community I was in. Lots of people were super funny and gave me a good laugh when I needed it the most. But it wasn’t worth the dread that I felt every time I logged on there.
Shortly after that though, I ended an online friendship that lasted nearly six years and I’ve been upset about it for the past couple of days. I cried the first night, and shortly after that, I just felt numb and tired. I’m not going to go into the details of why it ended or what was said, but I’ll just say I’m never letting anyone online get this close to me after this.
Anyway, I’ve been trying to do a lot more reading now, and social media was a large part of why I kept feeling too distracted to finish a book. I have like three books now that I’ve put to the side and plan to restart because it took me too long to get through them. ADHD and social media doesn’t mix well.
As of right now though, I’m reading A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J. Maas. And so far, I’m loving it. I have a little more than a hundred pages left. I’ve fallen so head over heels for Tamlin, but everyone keeps telling me that Feyre ends up choosing Rhysand. From what I can tell so far, Rhys is a sadistic sociopath??? So I’m really curious as to how Sarah is going to convince us that’s a good idea. Though given my history of falling hard for the villains of every story (Loki, Lezard, etc…) maybe I’ll fall for him too. But if Sarah ends up doing to Tamlin what Stephenie did to Jacob in Twilight… I’m going to be very mad.
What I miss the most is the fanfics and the engagement I would get on mine. Some of my favorite writers were only on Tumblr and nowhere else. I also miss the Jumblr community I was in. Lots of people were super funny and gave me a good laugh when I needed it the most. But it wasn’t worth the dread that I felt every time I logged on there.
Shortly after that though, I ended an online friendship that lasted nearly six years and I’ve been upset about it for the past couple of days. I cried the first night, and shortly after that, I just felt numb and tired. I’m not going to go into the details of why it ended or what was said, but I’ll just say I’m never letting anyone online get this close to me after this.
Anyway, I’ve been trying to do a lot more reading now, and social media was a large part of why I kept feeling too distracted to finish a book. I have like three books now that I’ve put to the side and plan to restart because it took me too long to get through them. ADHD and social media doesn’t mix well.
As of right now though, I’m reading A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J. Maas. And so far, I’m loving it. I have a little more than a hundred pages left. I’ve fallen so head over heels for Tamlin, but everyone keeps telling me that Feyre ends up choosing Rhysand. From what I can tell so far, Rhys is a sadistic sociopath??? So I’m really curious as to how Sarah is going to convince us that’s a good idea. Though given my history of falling hard for the villains of every story (Loki, Lezard, etc…) maybe I’ll fall for him too. But if Sarah ends up doing to Tamlin what Stephenie did to Jacob in Twilight… I’m going to be very mad.
